half giraffes

i woke up to the sound of guðni calling me, it was only twelve o'clock at night but i had fallen asleep watching south park around eight or nine. lame i know, but i just feel the need to go to bed that early. it's not because i'm twenty going on eighty years old or anything. i know it's a mix of things..adjusting to the time, and just being bored out of my mind. tracy texted me to come over around eleven thirty, but i told her i wouldn't be able to make it. i don't really know how i feel about tracy. she's a cool person but i sense something unusual about her. i do like her charm though, it's like that of a child. she's really cute and bouncy and intelligent but i think los angeles just got to her. she's going back to connecticut on thursday, and i don't blame her at all. what confuses me is that she always backs out of conversations when it concerns anything that's not a fantasy. when there's discussion on politics..the united states..the world. she just..changes the conversation back to people being half giraffe or something. but don't get me wrong, she's a great person..and an artist at best. i wonder why she didn't ask me about my trip to iceland, or why she seemed so disinterested whenever i spoke about it.. maybe it's just me. i know i can't really judge anyone, i have my flaws to.

she moved out to la with john, and i think the motive was to experience something different and see where john could with his musicial talents. the odd thing about all this is that john just finished getting professionally recorded. now he's actually able to send demo's..but he's going back to connecticut. this place is filled..absolutely filled..with people trying to make it one way or another. it really is like this. actors, musicians..they're all here. the funny part is that most of them suck. john was pretty talented though..but after a year of being here, tracy had gained twenty pounds and was getting depressed. so she's decided she's just about had enough. i've had enough to. i'm just glad i didn't gain the forty pounds.